Oh where my mind and
thoughts have been on going from a one child parent to two.
I dont know whats normal
thoughts and what is not but i do know i prob have had a touch of
both on this transistion. I think at first i was scared thinking how
could i have enough time or love to go around for 2 kids and a
husband and balance a full time job. With kid #1 my amazing daughter
i knew from day one i would be a single parent with her it made me
nervous but not enough to not be excited and happy that i was indeed
having a baby girl and my awesome family would be there if i totally
failed which i didn't in fact i think i surprised everyone.. But with
that being said i did everything my way with her no one to answer to
and in my mind i did everthing perfect wow i lived in a great world
with that thought procees didn't i :) And then i met the man that was
made for me and i couldn't have picked out a better dad for her out
of a catalog she loves him so much and i know he feels the same
sometimes you can just tell this is one of them. But then a few weeks
ago i found out baby #2 will be a BOY !!! Wow scared is not the word
i have no idea what to-do with a boy !!!! I am 110% lace, frills,
glitter and shine in the pink world me and my daughter have created.
I was thrown off completly for a day or two but now i am sooooo
excited and ready for this new fun adventure that a wild boy with
take me through. It's funny how things work out cause i know my
husband will be a better dad than most "good" dad's and yes
i know i'm lucky there an i feel deeply with everything in me it was
perfect timing for me to have a girl first and a boy second a little
boy def needs a stronf male role model and someone that actually
takes the time to be there and wants to which we now have !!!! So far
in my mind i am thinking i will fall in love with sport games
weekends at the ballfields, and a wild boy keping me on my toes as a
mother i will not have a problem with him if he makes choices to not
do sports but his dad is so amazing im hoping he will follow close
behind. And i think when my not so normal thoughts came in to play i
don't think i could love another girl the way i do with mine now
which i know may seem very odd to thhose moms that have 2 or more
daghters cause im sure it's the same but i do know a mothers instict
when a child is born is not something that can be messed with or
altered and it always seems to serve the purpose so perfect and
neatly...But in a nut shell this whole going from one kid to two has
made me really realize i think things really do happen for a reason
and right on time and i am super happy about two sets of cute feet
waking me up in the mornings :) !!!! So wish me luck and happiness on
this next roller coster ride !!
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